Not Just Anybody’s Saint Vrain

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John Gierach Lands A Brown Trout Photo by Louis Cahill

By Louis Cahill

“If you climb into the cab of that pickup with John you’ll find that where you wind up can, only in the most existential terms, be called a fishing trip.”


It’s about seven-thirty on a Saturday morning. It’s mid-September and the chilly Colorado air has coaxed a fair number of lookie-lous, headed up from Denver and Boulder to catch some fall color, into the Stone Cup Cafe on highway thirty-six in Lyons for a cup of hot coffee. A dozen or so of these plains dwellers are queued up like good little office workers waiting their turns when a lanky man in his seventies comes through the door. He is not, at once, remarkable. He’s wearing blue jeans, faded with a hole or two, cinched up with a belt to fit his slim frame. A fleece vest and sun-bleached hat frame an angular face that’s lined like a gazetteer. There is a little white feather tucked into his hat band, like Peter Pan. His white beard seems to pretty much have the run of his face. It’s had just enough grooming to suggest that there’s a woman involved somehow, but she’s learned to pick her battles. His bright blue eyes seem too young for the rest of him. He doesn’t dally. He has the stride of an experienced hiker who sets a pace and covers his allotted miles without complaint, his eye fixed on a distant peak. That peak, at this moment, being the coffee pot.

This fellow may not have raised much attention from the morning crowd when he came through the door, but that quickly changes as he walks promptly past the line, around behind the counter and to the coffee machine where, seemingly unnoticed by the staff, he sets about pouring two cups of coffee. He tucks a couple of bucks in a basket that hangs on the wall by the coffee pot, picks up his two cups and with the same determined stride walks back by the line of dumbstruck tourists. He doesn’t acknowledge them, their galled stares or open mouths. He is completely stoic until he is past the line and makes it to the door. He reaches out his hand and offers me a cup and an impish smile creeps across his face as he says, “I love doing that.” And in that instant, there he is, the man I have come to know through his words long before I laid eyes on him. This is John Gierach.

I met John a year earlier at a fly fishing trade show in Denver. I was at the Whiting Farms booth pouring through a selection of high quality rooster capes when he took up a place next to me and within a few moments began telling me how to kill a chicken with a stick. This would, no doubt, have seemed odd to me had I not known exactly who I was talking to. How could I not recognize this man? I’ve read more of his books than any three authors combined. Of course I knew him and I knew that he had tried his hand at raising chickens at the little house across the street from the Saint Vrain River and that it had been a total disaster and that he had to move when the well became contaminated from the gas station next door and a hundred other personal details that had forced their way into his stories. Had I known all there was to know about raising chickens and been the fellow who had first thought of killing one with a stick and gone on to raise that killing to an art form and had the very act of killing a chicken named after me, I would have still hung on every word. We chatted for a bit and exchanged cards and I expected that to be the end of it.

I discovered John’s writing at the point of one of those great cosmic detours that life takes. I had lost my father to cancer and both of my grandfathers shortly after. I still had a lot to learn from those men when their voices fell silent. I had set a lot of goals as a young man that, once attained, had not provided me with much in the way of happiness. My career as an advertising photographer seemed to be feeding on my sanity. The harder I worked and the more money I made the unhappier I became. My anger rose like a fire alarm ringing in my head and after giving some serious thought to shooting one of my clients, and I don’t mean with a camera, I decided to take some time off to appreciate my freedom. I made time to fish for the first time in years. I picked up a copy of “Trout Bum” and something clicked.

No one knew what a trout bum was in 1986, when the book was published. As far as I know John coined that term. We didn’t realize that, while we were busy with careers or school or raising families, those guys were out there. While we worked and sat in traffic or in front of the television, they were sacrificing comfortable, normal lives and relationships to spend their days, cold and wet, standing in a river and nights sleeping in the bed of a truck.

“When I started fly fishing we were out there looking for a mystical experience, and we found it” John told me. I got that from his writing. That book took me on a journey from which I would never return. It was as if he opened the door of his old pickup and said,”climb in” and took me to a place that I didn’t know existed.

I remember reading, “Trout are among those creatures who are one hell of a lot prettier than they need to be. They can get you wondering about the hidden workings of reality.” That observation is true, but it’s also a hint at what John is really up to. So conversational and understated it may not, at first, seem remarkable but if you climb into the cab of that pickup with John you’ll find that where you wind up can, only in the most existential terms, be called a fishing trip.

Like the prose of Hunter S. Thompson rose above the chaos and delirium to find the truth, John’s words transcended the fishing and tying and sleeping in the truck and found a connection to the workings of reality. For me it was a turning point. Hunter Thompson with a fly rod instead of drugs, I still think of him that way, but I don’t think he’d like it.

I ran across a photo of John, I can’t remember where, on a book jacket or in a magazine. He was standing in a stream, wearing hip boots holding a glass of wine and a cigar I think. The details are fuzzy now but it was an odd little photo. One of those things born of good intention but gone horribly wrong. Someone had obviously thought about it way too much, perhaps more than they had looked at it. I studied the image for a while, trying to square it with the man’s words, trying to picture the witty energetic fellow who had explained chicken killing to me actually doing this. It continued to bother me long after I forgot where I’d seen it. I just kept thinking, he deserves better.

Photo by Louis Cahill

I sat down at my computer to write an email and pulled the business card from my wallet. It read, John Gierach “editor at large.” No email address, no phone number, just a street address. I don’t know why it surprised me. It was charming really, in this age of skepticism and mistrust, this little card seemed to say, “stop by if you’re in the neighborhood.” As a sign of respect and as if to say, “OK, I’ll play along,” I did something I haven’t done in years. I wrote a letter. After a few weeks I received a reply. “Yes, of course I remember you. I’d be happy to sit for a portrait.” I packed a camera, a light and a bamboo fly rod and booked a flight to Colorado.

Arriving at John’s home I am struck by the view. It’s the house at the end of the dirt road, nothing out the back door but the Colorado front range and its endless peaks and valleys and secret streams. “We enjoy it,” john tells me “but we have to keep the cats in at night, mountain lion got the last one.”

Inside I meet Susan, the woman whom I’d imagined choosing her battles. A bright and vivacious woman, innately positive with an active and instant curiosity, who makes conversation like a reporter, which she is. She reminds me a bit of Katharine Hepburn, whom I have always adored. I now feel certain she could whip that beard into shape if she felt the need. John and I excuse ourselves and head down the stairs to his office for the photo shoot.

Remember the story of Aladdin and the magic lamp? Remember the cave of wonder, filled with the treasures of the world? That’s what’s at the bottom of those stairs. A dimly lit basement in a modest mountain home, but filled with the wonders of my childhood.
A hundred bamboo fly rods, most of them old, are stacked on every flat surface and leaning against every wall. The room smells of oil cloth and leather. Beautiful old side-by-side shotguns guard every corner; the nicer ones in racks on the wall next to oil paintings by Bob White. Rows of classic trout reels and larger Spey reels and in the far back corner of the room an old wooden office chair and, I trust, a desk hidden under that mound of hard bound books. This, I assume, is where the magic happens.

There is a door that leads out to a sort of patio space under the deck. It feels right, so I hang a backdrop and set up my light while John gets ready.

When John comes out for his photo he sets down his coffee, takes off his hat and vest, and combs his hair. He addresses the camera and says, “OK.” I make conversation about something while I gather up his hat and vest. “Why don’t you put these on,” I say, offering them to him. When he’s put them back on I offer him his coffee and he takes it. He gives me a quizzical look.

“This is exactly how I walked out here.”

“I know,” I answer. He shrugs and we get on with it. It’s clearly not how he’s used to these things going, but John is comfortable and easy to photograph. We talk for a few minutes and take a few photos. “let’s go fish,” I say. I receive no argument.

“I’d fish anybody’s Saint Vrain.” That remark, made by John’s friend A.K. Best, would end up the title of one of his stories. The Saint Vrain is technically a creek, but the locals all refer to it as a river. It’s John’s home water and I’ve read about it so many times that I feel like I’ve fished it. He had suggested taking me there and I was thrilled. After reading so much about this stream I was getting a first class introduction.

“There’s a little stretch I like,” he tells me. “It’s just off the road but it’s rough as a cob.
Not many folks go down there. We should have it to ourselves.”

“Sounds good to me,” I replied.

Photo by Louis Cahill

We turn off the main road and follow the canyon wall some way above the creek.

“When I moved out here from Michigan,” John says, “I thought there was water everywhere. There isn’t. This state is actually really arid but along the creeks was just the easiest place to build the roads so everywhere you drive there’s water. It played hell with some of the streams but I guess it worked out OK for the fishermen.”

We stop at a nondescript pullout. You can’t even see the river, just a faint trail leading down into the canyon. We rig up our rods and spend the requisite few minutes each studying the other’s. This ritual is fairly unique to boo heads but it’s an important part of the culture. Like a Japanese person will take a moment to study your business card before filing it respectfully away. It’s a sign of respect but also of genuine interest. Like fishermen, every cane rod has a story and some of them are true.

I put on my waders and boots, my fishing pack and the two waist bags that carry my cameras. John dons a pair of hip boots, the ones I’d seen in the photo I suspect, pops a fly box into his shirt pocket and is polite enough not to point out how over-prepared I am. We head down the trail to the river.

“How do you want to do this?” John asks when we reach the water.

“I like to take turns on a stream like this,” I reply. “Why don’t you start and I’ll take a few photos.”

John lifts the fly box from his shirt pocket with two fingers and opens it. He looks around to see what’s in the air or on the water. The box is small, a few dozen flies at best. One side filled with bushy dries, Caddis, Green Drakes, some Adams, a few parachutes and some terrestrials. The other side is nymphs, a healthy selection of Soft Hackles and some beautifully tied Stone Flies, some of them truly huge, standing out bright yellow against the grays and browns of the rest. It dawns on me that I am looking at the home water box. I remember John writing about it in “Trout Bum.” “The single box I try to carry on expeditions to local, well-known waters in an ongoing act of ascetic bravado,” he had called it.

In that story John spends the coldest night in recorded Colorado history tying flies for the coming season, drinking beer and talking to the dog. He describes the patterns in detail, recalls special fish that each has caught and plans fishing trips where they will be used. With both the phone and truck battery dead he feeds the wood stove and takes us along as he falls deeper into the meditation of tying.

John’s flies are very traditional in design, but like any good fisherman he has added his own twists, subtle but significant modifications that make them his own. The flies are sparse for the most part and the proportions are wonderfully elegant, the sign of a truly great tyer. Watching John select a fly, it strikes me that he holds the fly box like an open book. A posture, no doubt such a part of his muscle memory that he is as unaware of it as you might be of a blink. It’s appropriate, like so much of this man’s life, the fly box is an open book in which you can read the story of his life.

He makes no attempt to hide it from me. John is nothing if not shockingly open and honest, sometimes to the point of being confrontational. There are Green Drakes hatching so he ties on a good imitation and then selects a dropper, a curious variation of a Hare’s Ear Soft Hackle. He takes a second one from the box and gives it to me. “These work well down here,” he tells me. In the book he had called this fly ugly. It’s anything but. I can not help but picture him next to that wood stove on a cold winter night tying up a dozen of these. Carefully crafting each one from hare’s mask, hen hackle and electrical wire. I picture that moment where he sits, his dog at his side, tying this fly for me. It’s a connection too powerful for me to ignore. Too precious to leave on a rock or tree branch at the bottom of a stream. I take the fly and tuck it carefully in my box.

“Will you get your feelings hurt if I don’t fish this.” I ask. “I’d like to keep it.”

He hands me another.

Photo by Louis Cahill

I take a few shots of John fishing and then get preoccupied with taking close-ups of the Drakes drying their new wings in the sun. The day has turned warm and the sun that finds its way into the canyon is welcome. The Saint Vrain reminds me of Noontootla Creek where I learned much of what I know about trout. It’s rushing pocket water, cold, loud and full of life of all kinds. The kind of stream where you high stick dries and get splashy takes right at your feet. This kind of fishing brings out the kid in me and when I get the chance to do it, I wonder why I do anything else. It doesn’t take long for John to hook a fish. A beautiful brown about ten inches, exactly what you would expect here.
I’m in a good spot and I take a photo as he lands the fish. It’s one of those rare occasions when you are lucky enough to be aware of the context of the moment. I am photographing John Gierach landing a brown trout on the Saint Vrain with a bamboo rod, quite possibly the most iconic image in fly fishing. It remains one of my favorite photos.

“I wasn’t sure about you at first. I mean, how you’d want to go about this, if you’d want to stage something or just go at it,” John comments while releasing the fish. He is clearly pleased with the answer.

I’m up and John’s fly works. I catch a spunky little brown just dapping a pocket ten feet away. I tell John that my brother, a bass fisherman as dedicated to that endeavor as I am to mine, asked me, “do you count the ones you catch like that?” “Tell him you don’t count any of them!” John replies. I mention how beautiful the trout in this river are and explain to John how my fascination with the fish is really what has kept me fishing all these years. I use a phrase I have used a hundred times before: “They’re like swimming jewelry.”

“That’s beautiful,” he says, “I’m going to use that.”

“Be my guest,” I replied.

“I don’t need permission,” he fires back and shows me that smile I’d seen earlier in the coffee shop. I feel certain I’m not the first fisherman to hear this.

John would quote me in the next issue of Fly Rod and Reel. I was clearly wrong about the desk, this is where the magic happens.

The Saint Vrain has made good on its promises. There are mayflies in the air and fish in every pocket and as John had predicted, not a soul but us. Fly fishing is no easy endeavor. That is, of course what draws most of us to it. Fly fishers are a masochistic lot who, for the most part, enjoy doing things in the hardest way possible. With guilty pleasure, we relish days like this. Days when the fishing is easy. Days when you don’t work for your fish, you play with them. We don’t go home and tell our family’s or call and brag to our friends, but inside, we love it.

John and I leapfrog up stream, taking turns fishing, telling stories and laughing, then John finds a tangled wad of monofilament in some brush along the bank. His reaction is
visceral. He rips it out of the bushes. his face is drawn and angry. His body has become
suddenly stiff, every movement forced as if he were trying not to punch someone who
really deserved it,

“That really pisses me off,” he mutters. Shaking the wad of mono at me he continues “Never leave mono on the river,” his voice is louder and angry now, like he’s scolding me. “Not even a little piece,” he goes on. “Well, I’m not talking about the tag end off your fly, you know what I mean.”

My grandfather had that kind of temper and for a moment I feel like a kid who lost my grandad’s favorite fishing rod. It must have shown on my face. He’s suddenly aware that he’s scolding me for someone else’s mistake and is clearly a little embarrassed but still angry.

“Sorry,” he says, ” I found a little squirrel dead down here once, all tangled in a bunch of mono.”

It takes a minute for him to settle back down. We each catch a few more fish before an afternoon thunderstorm finds us and we decide to call it a day. We make it back to the truck just as the rain starts in earnest.

I’ve fished a lot of places. Some truly exotic, some unbelievable fisheries with the biggest and most beautiful fish anywhere. I’ve wrestled tarpon and had my knuckles busted by bright steelhead. I’ve fished turquoise flats under pink cotton candy clouds and climbed eighty foot waterfalls to fish secret brookie streams, and yet that half day on the Saint Vrain may be my most memorable day of fishing. I see John from time to time, usually for a cup of coffee. We keep up by email and he has been kind enough to offer me advice on my writing, but we have not managed to fish again although we’ve tried. We both travel all the time. There are no stories or photographs at home on the couch.

When I get the urge to spend another day on the river with John, I can always pick up one of those dog-eared paperbacks on the book shelf and there he is, the man I fished with on the Saint Vrain. Just as witty and energetic, just as thoughtful and irreverent, just as honest and unwavering in the face of the truth. When I read his words I hear his voice, I feel the brisk mountain air and I smell the coffee brewing. I open those books and he fills the room. Reminding me that a life spent on a small stream is not a small life.


More than twenty years after “Trout Bum” John’s writing remains relevant. His new book “No Shortage Of Good Days” is outstanding! Pick up a copy here.

Louis Cahill
Gink & Gasoline
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67 thoughts on “Not Just Anybody’s Saint Vrain

  1. Well said.. i discovered fly fishing late in life and then John Gierach. Not sure which was better…no wait… the fishing is better, John just adds to the pleasure.

  2. I, too, found Gierach at a particularly stressful time in my life and reading that book changed me, though my book is “Sex, Death, and Fly-Fishing.” I had fished off and on my whole life (I was about 24 at the time), but had never flyfishing. The next day I went back to that bookstore in a flat Mississippi town hundreds of miles away from the closest trout stream and bought the Orvis Guide to Fly Fishing.

    Two months later, I moved home to the Ozarks and finally got to flyfish. By then, I had read that book and two other Gierach books at least twice each. I think they were all I read during those two months.

  3. On a cold rainy day I escaped from my work for only a minute but entrapped in this article time got away. As I neared the end I could hear the trash truck stop and pull away. I’ll live with my garbage for another week and cherish this story the rest of my life! P.S. I’ll try to quit counting my fish 🙂

  4. Great writing LC!!! Made me feel like I was there watching the whole thing unfold. I’m sure John is proud of the story you’ve told. Gonna go blow the dust of the old Trout Bum book. If I haven’t said you suck in awhile….well you suck.

    Charlie loves you.

    “If people don’t occasionally walk away from you shaking their heads, you’re doing something wrong.”
    ― John Gierach

  5. I think this is my new favorite post of yours Louis. I’ve never had the pleasure of meeting Mr. Gierach personally, but you captured him exactly how I imagined him to be. Very nicely done.

    • Matt,

      Glad you enjoyed this post by Louis. I know he really enjoyed telling the story of fishing with John. We are always a little hesitant to post stories this long because a lot of people don’t have time or get bogged down from all the words. It’s great to hear there are people like you out there that enjoy the longer pieces.


  6. John’s books kept me sane during the time my wife was pregnant with our twin well as the following 2 yrs when it was impossible to go fishing. A stressful, yet rewarding time, I kept reading those books over and over again. I still do.

  7. Thanks for the great read. I was a little bummed at first when I noticed the long post, but just like a Gierach book, I couldn’t walk away until I finished the story.

    • Thanks Nick. We try to mix it up with long and short posts. I know folks have limited time these days but some stories just take a while to tell. I’m glad you stuck with it.

      BTW, thanks for the feedback. We always like hearing what you like or don’t like on the site. It helps us make it better for everyone.

  8. Very nice read. Great work with your writing. Louis. Feels like I got a great take on Gierach. Reminiscent of characters I have know. The part about the mono showed a lot of depth to his personality. I would love to fish a bamboo one of these days. Just haven’t.


  9. Great story about one of my favorite authors. You will always have a great memory of your day spent with Gierach. Thanks for sharing it in such a vivid way…

  10. I picture most writing this story as a hunt – where you circle the plain, gain an upwind approach and as unsure as you could be – your letter provides a bead upon our sport’s greatest writer. So many would pose holding an antler. None of that though.

    Written as two guys discovering that the other fly fishes. “You do? – so do I. Why don’t we fish together sometime?” Comfort.

    In a three card monty game among Gierach stories, yours would be picked first … some of the time. A very enjoyable read.


    • Thanks Grant. You may give me too much credit. John may have such a grand plan for his writing, I’m just figuring this stuff out. I really appreciate your support.

  11. I’ve been a Gierach fan for years. I’m recently retired and have made fly fishing my new passion. I’m in the process of rereading his books and have picked up a few of the older and newer ones I had missed along the way. He writes about life through fly fishing.

    Your article is simply outstanding. Thank you.

  12. Really enjoyable piece. I met JG once at a flyfishing “event” and expressed my admiration for his work and my appreciation to him for all the pleasure I have received reading his prose. It felt to me a little like a Kathy Bates moment with James Caan. But he was surpassingly gracious and reacted as if it was the first time he had received praise. As your story relates, JG’s finest quality is his unassuming down-to-earth presence. Nice job.

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  14. The portrait of the landing is the most spectacular shot of John I’ve ever seen and the story is even better. Thank you.

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  16. A wonderful piece,thank you! John and his writeing,for me charactise not just fishing,but how to live your life honestly,and decently. I’m British and stumbled on a copy of Trout Bum,many years ago on Holliday in a smoky mountains outfitters. My wife (ex now!) didn’t realize it at the time, but we were on a fishing trip,disguised as a Holliday .
    Two years later,she still didn’t realize I was on a” pilgrimage ” ,when we just happened to stop in Lyons,CA.
    I never got to meet John of course,but did the next best thing,met one of his fishing buddy’s who makes the most beautiful bamboo rods,right there in Lyons. Three years later,I had one,it was along waiting list…but worth every dollar ,and every month! I’ve read everything John has written…several times,I just hope he keeps on…keeping on!! Never got to fish the St Vrain…..I live in Thailand now,but gonna take my beautiful rod there one day before I “shuffle off this mortal coil”. Graham

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  18. So I come to this essay almost a year after it was first posted via Erin Block’s shoutout on MidCurrent. She’s one of my favorite writers, Gierach is one of my favorite writers, and now Cahill is one of my favorite writers. A writer with a photographer’s eye who uses words to evoke the pixels in my mind’s eye. Really well done, Louis.

    — Greg

  19. Great read; thanks for sharing it.
    It does make me re-consider my definition of the “John Gierach Effect”, or, maybe, expand it. His writing has inspired so many to fish thoughtfully, but he’s also inspired many of us to write. My first published magazine piece was a homage piece entitled “Counting Coups on John Gierach”. So many anglers, and writers, owe him thanks.

    • Hold on a minute there! I didn’t quit that job. That’s what pays for the fishing trips. While we’re on the subject, if any of our readers need advertising photography I could use the work.

      Thanks for the support Bob!

  20. I bought Gierach’s new book last year and it compelled me to reread all of his previous books. What a marvelous writer. The two words that come to mind are magical – he captures the magic of fly fishing, and relaxing – his life experience, such that he shares, reflects a life well lived with minimal stress.

  21. Nice story that assures Gierach’s reality is sentenced in his books. A good, healthy and relaxed reality with the common sense missing so often in the true reality of us others. But no one’s to be blamed, our choice. Congratulations on this nice essay. It will hopefully make easier waiting Friday for the nex fly fishing.

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  24. Louis, thanks for re-posting your fine essay. I can envision your day on the St. Vrain and understand why it will be so memorable.

    I’m fairly new to fly fishing but have read most of John’s books. His style reminds me of a Chicago columnist, Mike Royko. Royko was called the “King of the Kicker” due to how he closed his columns with wit and a twist. I mentioned this to John at a book signing and he acknowledged the compliment – “you build the reader up and then you add a twist (making a twisting motion with his hand)” he said.

  25. Louis, as always, your writing and your photographs are superb. This story and the remarkable portrait of John Gierach, both the written and photographic one, explain why. The black and white portrait reminds me of the famous Karsh portrait of Ernest Hemingway. No surprise there. Rock on, Louis!

  26. I missed this the first time, thank you for re-posting..

    bought Trout Bum in South Africa and had lengthy fantasies about backpacking up small mountain streams in CO.
    Link from my name, shows a mountain stream in S. Africa.
    Somehow after emigrating to the US, we ended up in Denver 😉 and I’ve been able to do a few such exotic trips.. not enough though.

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