By Louis Cahill
It’s been a while since I posted an update on my condition.
Most of you know that the last year has been a rough one for me as I am in an ongoing struggle with PVR, which has impacted my vision and much more. Things change all the time but I’m hesitant to post updates. Folks would get tired of hearing about it and, frankly, I get tired of talking about it. I’m writing this because I actually do have some news and I honestly don’t have much else to write about, since this has been my life lately.
I expected to be in bed recovering from my seventh eye surgery this week, but I’m not. I saw the doctor a little over a week ago and he says I’m stable (that’s kind of a big deal) and there is no rush, so we rescheduled the surgery for October. That’s a huge relief! Being on my feet for a while is really going to help me recover from some of the unexpected side effects of my condition.
I knew going in that my vision was not going to be great. There was a good stretch there where they thought I might lose both eyes but, knock wood, that concern seems to have passed. My left eye seems to be in ok shape. There are no guarantees but with PVR but my doctor seems pretty confident about it. It’s been a while sine there was any talk of physically losing the right eye, which is awesome, but I am legally blind in that eye. Visually, for now at least, that’s very challenging. If the right eye were gone my vision would be better. The bad signal from the right eye makes a mess of everything. If, however, things were to go badly in the left eye I’d be damned glad to have it.
I didn’t know going in that this thing would wreck me in so many other ways. Recovering from multiple surgeries, I was in bed for a solid six months. Three months of that I couldn’t even roll over. That caused all sorts of other problems. Muscle atrophy, balance issues and nerve damage being the worst. Long story short, I had to learn to do simple things like walk, sit up and feed myself without a bib all over again.
I’m doing great now. I’m still very weak with some ironic pain but I am driving (which is huge) and doing pretty much whatever I want. I have fished twice in the last month. Ok, I know that doesn’t sound like a big deal but it is. I used to put in over 250 days a year but four hours on Sunday morning wiped me out. This week I’m fishing two days and for the first time I’ll be wading. Again, doesn’t sound like a dig deal, but just a few weeks ago the idea of standing in a stream seemed impossible. I’m incredibly excited. Hopefully next week I won’t be telling you about new cast on my leg!
For the casting geeks.
I was very afraid that I would be learning to cast a fly rod from scratch. Fortunately, some part of me remembers, at least, which end of the rod to hold. Thats not to say I’m casting well. I’m casting as poorly as I have in quite a while but the problems are muscular not mental. Light trout rods are fairly easy for me to handle but when I pick up a nine weight, things aren’t so pretty.
Distance is ok, not great bot ok. Loop control is where things get sticky. The small stabilizing muscles and all of my core muscles have deteriorated so controlling the rod is challenging. I went out on Sunday and threw streamers for striped bass and my loops were pretty lumpy and open. After a few hours things cleaned up a good bit but I wore out quickly. Still, that’s the best way I know to get it back. Refining movements when the muscles are exhausted is the best way to improve muscle memory. My doctor has referred me to physical therapy and, if my insurance will cover it, I’m hopeful that will help.
Lastly, I apologize for being so absent lately. As I start getting out more I will have more to write about. I’m hopeful that relearning to cast will give me some perspective that will help me write more effectively for folks who are just learning. I will also apologize in advance for all of the typos you’ll be seeing. Of all of my visual challenges, the computer is the very worst. for all I know the last half dozen paragraphs have all ben gibberish. Let me know in the comments!
Thank you all for your support! From the bottom of my heart. I’ll let you know how the fishing goes this week.Louis Cahill Gink & Gasoline www.ginkandgasoline.com email@example.com Sign Up For Our Weekly Newsletter!